Waiting...

I hate it.  I hate waiting in lines.  I hate waiting for food.  I hate waiting a week to see the next episode of a show.  I hate waiting months for the next season.  I hate waiting in traffic.  Waiting makes me feel trapped, claustrophobic, anxious.

Yet, somehow I feel like my life is paused and I am stuck waiting.

Waiting for Hannes to be ready so we can leave the house (he has to decide which of his 47 pairs of Vans to wear).  Waiting to have a baby (I have to work for 240 days first).  Waiting to be engaged (I have to wait for Hannes to be ready).  Waiting to meet my new coworkers (I have to wait until August 1st).  Waiting for our apartment (It isn't available until August 1st).  Waiting to buy things for our new apartment (Hannes says it's dumb to buy things now and then have to move them all).

I'm tired of feeling trapped and anxious and claustrophobic...I'm tired of waiting.  I'm tired of waiting to be someone's fiancee.  I'm tired of waiting to be pregnant.  I'm tired of waiting to see our new apartment.  I'm ready for something to happen.  I need this next chapter to begin, to take my mind off of all of the things that I'm waiting for and just give me something to do!

Jönköping/Huskvarna

On Wednesday we took a day trip to Jönköping...well, really Huskvarna, to see where we would be living.  We stopped by my school, which is absolutely amazing!  Went by the apartment and then drove past the school the kids will be attending.  The weather was absolutely amazing so we decided to head to the lake, get some ice cream and just look around.  The city is absolutely charming...cobblestone streets, little shops, restaurants, a pier that you can walk out into the lake on and even sandy beaches!  I am definitely looking forward to being able to hang out there next month!  The largest lake is freezing cold and not really the best for swimming, but luckily there are several much smaller lakes that are warmer and much better to take a dip in.  Our apartment looked pretty nice.  It's only two bedrooms so it's definitely going to much smaller than what we are used to, but hopefully it's only temporary.  We also found out how much we were going to be paying in rent...6,672 kronor/month!  It's a lot more than we were expecting.  Since it's so small and in a smaller city I was thinking it'd be closer to 5,000, but we had NO other options so I guess we will have to make it work!  Hannes just needs to find a job soon!